Today I felt death so near… I was so sure that death was there to take me.
So I was going through a moment, about to go to the astral world..waiting for that special moment to take place..
Seems like I am set for my journey this time .as everything around me felt so different.
I felt like my blood was being drained out of me, gasping for air but with no big struggles.
Why do I feel like, it is my time to go…?
…laying there confused waiting for my spirit to decide on leaving my body completely. Silence took over for a while as I lay there with my eyes half closed wondering what that was… I’m I dead?
….. So i wrote a note to my brother Mark to see if he will respond, that will confirm that, I’m still here on earth and alive. Yes he did!!!!
By the way, do you know, death is actually birth!
28th of July 2000 right after the birth of my son, I left on a short journey in the astral world, or the spiritual world. I thought my life on earth was nearly finished.. I found myself in a tunel, walking effortlessly towards a beautiful garden outside,
….Then I was brought back on earth by doctors. I was not happy about it… I felt gloomy and apprehensive.
30.10.2017 Maureen Lermer
To be made real be blended in…
Falling to new lows, entering into places
I did not want to go but endure…
I cannot act my age, but I can live my age
So happy of the knowledge gained through my journey
Reaching out to others to lend a hand and vise versa..
Learning to find a home in myself.. and being totally with my total being. A battle I will not choose to loose.. Why on earth should I? When such sweet notes, such amazing melodies, the steps! oh… and my dance has just begun..
For the first time I lay back observing the sky.. like in my early childhood.. lost in space and time.. To become, acceptable to me.. I have walked among the living and death.. So much death among so much living..
But that won’t stop the river flowing.. so i take upon this journey as i learn the roles of the river…
My journey has just begun.
“If you want to be free get to know your real self. It has no form, no appearance, No root, no basic, no abode, But it’s function cannot be located. Therefore, when you look for it, when you seek it, You turn away from it all the more. -Linji
Maureen Lermer 24/10/2017
By The Tao Te Ching
All under heaven see beauty as beauty only because they also see ugliness.
All announce that good is good only because they also denounce what is bad.
Therefore, something and nothing give birth to one another.
Difficult and easy complete one another.
Long and short fashion one another.
High and low arise from one another.
Notes and tones harmonise with one another.
Front and back follow one another.
Thus, the True Person acts without striving and teaches without words.
Deny nothing to the ten thousand things.
Nourish them without claiming authority,
Benefit them without demanding gratitude,
Do the work, then move on.
And, the fruits of your labour will last forever.
One love. Peace!
Titel picture by Scott Mitchell of #Worldiction Arts
… Authum is a year in one..
Beautiful, magical, colourful arts set on stone
Even the leaves fall for you..
Pumpkins parading in their best
Life starts again for YOU…
We have been together before..
I enjoyed those strong protective arms of yours
Kissed your precious lips
Shared your secret potion..
Meeting you again.. renewing our vows
Became even more better and more profound
Waking up next to you is more of a privilege, knowing each day spent with you is a blessing.
As days get closer for us to part.
I feel very sad; I get a sharp pain in my heart; my stomach acts weird …
But then, WE shared .. Stunning MOMENTS
I never knew the term Stunning, meant much more than it seems.
We had the simplest but we had the richest
We had our love.
Every moment spent… thoughts shared
every second of the day, is what I’ll carry to last me, till we both see again.
They are my memorable values
9/2017 By Maureen Lermer
“I am on a battlefield of.. Deaths, sickness.. etc… in the past months”
I wish to use this opportunity to thank those supporting, loving and caring for me.
As the night takes over me
Darkness is my only friend.
Fear, embraces every inch of me,
Excitement, anxiousness becomes my master.. (even though i try staying strong)
After Hours, months of sever battles. My body is totally rendered wretched. My soul and body is left with wounds to mend.
After all the happenings.. deaths,
Sickness and more
There is a reason to fight for my being here alive.
There is a future to build a solid self upon. Great things to withness.
There is hope in every morrow.
Sadness and sorrows are not mine to borrow.
My soul deserves the best now, more than ever, to move on and survive.
(May the soul of my father-in- law and those dear to me rest in perfect peace.)
“Dark days are necessary.
Just as important as the rest,
For if we didn’t have the worst.
We couldn’t recognise the best”
Maureen Lermer 8/2017