GrandMa,… I miss you..!!

Grandma.. I miss you...!!!


I strongly feel you beside me some days.   Sometimes my mind wonders, searching for your wise words.. searching for your smile, your voice….

 You were a precious gift from God above,
so much patience, endurance, grace and love.
You touched our hearts in so many ways,
your smile, so bright even on the bad days. Your home was a place for the most.
You heard God’s whisper calling you home,
you didn’t want to go and leave us alone. Always bothering if we shall get things right
You loved us so much, you held on tight to life,
till all the strength was gone and you could no longer fight… the pains..
The Almighty had called your name many a times before,
you knew you couldn’t make him wait anymore. ´Holding on your rosary tight you prayed your last prayers..
So you gave your hand to God and slowly drifted away,
knowing that with our love we will be together again someday…

I miss you so badly, If I knew it would be the last time that I see you smile,  hear you talk, take your hand….  huuuh.. Grandma (mami…..)

I would video tape each action     and word, those recipes.. so I could play them back day after  day.

 I could have spared an extra minute to …. stop and say “I LOVE YOU,”

instead of assuming you would  KNOW I DO… 

Your grandchildren never had the chance to adore and know you. I showed pictures of you, told them about you.
Oh how I wish you knew how nothing in my life will ever be the same
But I am giving my best, just like you did alone after grandpa died. You once said, nothing should ever slow down or stop my future
Grandma, how I wish you knew how long this poem could go on…..
so much I MISS YOU…

 (deep breath, sigh…)