A Jouney to myself.. 

To be made real be blended in…

Falling to new lows, entering into places

I did not want to go but endure…

I cannot act my age, but I can live my age

So happy of the knowledge gained through my journey

Reaching out to others to lend a hand and vise versa.. 

Learning to find a home in myself.. and being totally with my total being. A battle I will not choose to loose.. Why on earth should I? When such sweet notes, such amazing melodies, the steps! oh… and my dance has just begun.. 

For the first time I lay back observing the sky.. like in my early childhood.. lost in space  and time.. To become, acceptable to me.. I have walked among the living and death.. So much death among so much living.. 

But that won’t stop the river flowing.. so i take upon this journey as i learn the roles of the river… 

My journey has just begun. 

“If you want to be free get to know your real self. It has no form, no appearance, No root, no basic, no abode, But it’s function cannot be located. Therefore, when you look for it, when you seek it, You turn away from it all the more.  -Linji

Maureen Lermer 24/10/2017 

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Worth reading .. ” Zen” 

By The Tao Te Ching

-2-

All under heaven see beauty as beauty only because they also see ugliness.

All announce that good is good only because they also denounce what is bad.

Therefore, something and nothing give birth to one another.

Difficult and easy complete one another.

Long and short fashion one another.

High and low arise from one another.

Notes and tones harmonise with one another.

Front and back follow one another.

Thus, the True Person acts without striving and teaches without words.

Deny nothing to the ten thousand things.

Nourish them without claiming authority,

Benefit them without demanding gratitude,

Do the work, then move on.

And, the fruits of your labour will last forever.

One love. Peace!

Titel picture by Scott Mitchell  of #Worldiction Arts 

Battles are real..

“I am on a battlefield of.. Deaths, sickness.. etc… in the past months”
I wish to use this opportunity to thank those supporting, loving and caring for me.

As the night takes over me
Darkness is my only friend.
Fear, embraces every inch of me,
Excitement, anxiousness becomes my master.. (even though i try staying strong)

Deep breath…
After Hours, months of sever battles. My body is totally rendered wretched. My soul and body is left with wounds to mend.

After all the happenings.. deaths,
Sickness and more
There is a reason to fight for my being here alive.
There is a future to build a solid self upon. Great things to withness.
There is hope in every morrow.
Sadness and sorrows are not mine to borrow.
My soul deserves the best now, more than ever, to move on and survive.

(May the soul of my father-in- law and those dear to me rest in perfect peace.)

“Dark days are necessary.
Just as important as the rest,
For if we didn’t have the worst.
We couldn’t recognise the best”

-Anonymous –

Maureen Lermer 8/2017

Infinity ♾

In our place of refuge
It was just about us being free.
Free from our mysterious doubts
A place where you and I find peace.
A place where we are holders of our hearts
setting of our dreams
It is my little  infinity and your  little infinity

This infinity is one we can endlessly visit.
why would i want to be realistic when i have this wonderful infinity to comfort me when things aren’t right

Our infinity, holds our heart
Our dreams take place here
it is our very own

♾2 

Maureen Lermer 7.2017

Burning Desires. ..my thoughts 

Between the lines are our thoughts,
i reread them before i repose .
I dream of vigils that we lovers keep,
while all night long, I waking sign your name.
The tender sound does every nerve inflame.
Imagination shows me all your charms.
So adorable is your sparkling eye.

Love could you see my heart,
How fond, how true, how free from fraudful to explain
The eager wish, which through my very blood and soul I feel,
Which you cannot believe nor I reveal,
Which every metaphor must render less
And yet which I could well express
between sheets while we merge.
As our souls reach out as we endulge.

Maureen Lermer  24.04.17

Milika is 10 

She was thae most beautiful girl in the room today. With her immaculate white dress. She says. ‘

I was sad leaving Afghanistan,  leaving behind everything,  I never knew we will find solace love and care in Germany, Mering’. 

My family!!!!  She says.. she meant her new home, the Asylee helpers of Mering and other loving people, taking care of them/ her. 

What a happy and grateful child. 

What ever, future holds for you,  may you have the courage to face it with love and respect. 

Yours Maureen. ..One love. 

If only our dreams had a map. 

I am not an expert in relationships but… I thought… 

I am a dreamer, but also an achiever. I think some where in our deeps dreams, we dream of that ultimate  person, that wondrous companion that becomes your best friend as well as your lover. If only your dreams had a map and some instructions on how to get to that person, how nice and easy things would be. But I like to think that the more difficult the experience will be.  Patience is virtue,  as they say. I have gone through my ups and my downs, I think it was all necessary to shape me into the woman I am today. Let’s look at the truth here,  a woman or a nan who has never been heart broken,  or who had never screwed up a relationship or even a moment,  how can these people seriously  know how to appreciate a significant or even that truly special someone? How do they know what appreciating a good person is? We require experience only so we can perfectly adjust to that special someone. 

I think most people wish for someone considerable,  someone who can share their inners elf,  go an extra mile together,  can debate, humorous, romantic, witty, someone who appreciates,  may not have the same hobby but tolerance, great sense of love, trust, respect, passion,  friendship. 

I know most are testing their luck, but if you are too damp picky, stupid, you may sink down the road too oldness and loneliness. And you may not!!!!!! 

A base to a great friendship is a good chemistry, and tendency to reach out to experiment your personality! !

Let’s hope each one have had a taste of true love before we die. 

One love. Peace. 

Our Thoughts…

Our thoughts, influences our being. Our thoughts are the real bullets, bombs, you name it!!!!

……..Real battels beginns in our minds and not on the battle fields.

What we see out there, are the distructive thoughts of what we think. It posses power, ego over certain people, place, time and environment The will to manipulate who ever and what ever comes our way

What we see, feel, hear, going on, are our thoughts transfered onto a real battle field. Now,we are left to pay the price, on goods we never ordered.

Please, lets think … before we sentence someone to death, with our beastly thoughts.

#influence #negetiveness #race #class #range, #anger #fear… I may not change it, and you probably not!  But i know that we are smart enough to use them wisely.

By Maureen Lermer

 

Invisible…

Bildergebnis für pictures of invisible

………..You dance with me
but you’re not aware of me

You even pass me by, not realizing im standing there

……………..You are so into others as if i was not near
…..Will you ever remember my face?

maybe you may remember the  days!

it never occoured to me,

you ever realized i am seeking thee                                                                              have i ever existed in your world?                                                                               or have i ever been heard ?

I always felt your heart,  your pulse ,                                                                         as you pass by close

I’m invisible
i’m unseenable
i’m  not spoken to

i am not listend too
i am not even given a chance
i’m invisible im not given a glance
i´m not existing…
i’ll always be on the outside listenning

I was  so sick Of being just invisible me…

Hope someday you’ll understand me

may be make things better,

not for me but for you Mister

Wishing i was visible…

instead of  invisible..

I am not invisible… I am HERE!!


Scott Mitchell – Photographer/Poet

Bildergebnis für pictures of invisible

by Maureen Ndemela Lermer

Dedicated to all those who feel invisible… You are visible.. because you exists.. Because you are WORTH…