Burning Desires. ..my thoughts 

Between the lines are our thoughts,
i reread them before i repose .
I dream of vigils that we lovers keep,
while all night long, I waking sign your name.
The tender sound does every nerve inflame.
Imagination shows me all your charms.
So adorable is your sparkling eye.

Love could you see my heart,
How fond, how true, how free from fraudful to explain
The eager wish, which through my very blood and soul I feel,
Which you cannot believe nor I reveal,
Which every metaphor must render less
And yet which I could well express
between sheets while we merge.
As our souls reach out as we endulge.

Maureen Lermer  24.04.17

Passionate wishful Desires for 2

As months turns into weeks, days, hours, minutes… seconds…. Finally!!

I have been waiting for this moment…
Here we are, staring at each other, eyes deep planted into our souls.
You want me just as much as I want you…. let’s stop fooling around.

Take me in your arms….kiss me all over… play love games on my body, bring out what’s been in me for far too long.
Damn! We know..  that’s all we keep dreaming and longing for.

Let’s work ourselves like we’ve never done before.. till we just can’t take no more and melt into each other’s magic.
I want you now.. and i know you want me too. Let’s wait no more…..

Here we are looking for a reason …. for us to anticipate
For a love like ours is never out of season. Please… stop teasing me!
Let’s pamper ourselves. We both know no other can love us, the way we do.
We are natures best gift to each other☯️💝

9.01.2017 @Maureen Lermer

If only our dreams had a map. 

I am not an expert in relationships but… I thought… 

I am a dreamer, but also an achiever. I think some where in our deeps dreams, we dream of that ultimate  person, that wondrous companion that becomes your best friend as well as your lover. If only your dreams had a map and some instructions on how to get to that person, how nice and easy things would be. But I like to think that the more difficult the experience will be.  Patience is virtue,  as they say. I have gone through my ups and my downs, I think it was all necessary to shape me into the woman I am today. Let’s look at the truth here,  a woman or a nan who has never been heart broken,  or who had never screwed up a relationship or even a moment,  how can these people seriously  know how to appreciate a significant or even that truly special someone? How do they know what appreciating a good person is? We require experience only so we can perfectly adjust to that special someone. 

I think most people wish for someone considerable,  someone who can share their inners elf,  go an extra mile together,  can debate, humorous, romantic, witty, someone who appreciates,  may not have the same hobby but tolerance, great sense of love, trust, respect, passion,  friendship. 

I know most are testing their luck, but if you are too damp picky, stupid, you may sink down the road too oldness and loneliness. And you may not!!!!!! 

A base to a great friendship is a good chemistry, and tendency to reach out to experiment your personality! !

Let’s hope each one have had a taste of true love before we die. 

One love. Peace. 


 Fly my butterfly fly..
I do not know how long you have around here.  I hear you do not have much time. So I plan not be in your way. I want you to go out in the world and spread your wings.  Fly!!!!  Land on every beautiful flower. .. flatter to the next. See how graceful, colorful  you look. See how the plants are happy to see you today. 

If you fly back to me, I ll know that,  I have been blessed one more time again. If not I hope you are well where ever you fly to. 

May every flower receive you with endless love. May they see in you the things I see in you, so that you can enjoy the little time you have here. 

Fly my butterfly fly.. spread your colorful wings and fly. 

One..love. Peace!  

As I began to love myself by Charlie Chaplin

With the ups and downs in life we are sometimes turn between who we are and what we are. Loving oneself is a challenge but when you do, it can bring about true healing and transformation. This poem truelly did inspired me. Charlie Chaplin, on his 70th birthday wrote this poem. Hopefully this poem helps you to begin to love yourself.

As I began to love myself I found that anguish and emotional suffering
are only warning signs that I was living against my own truth.
Today, I know, this is “AUTHENTICITY”.

As I began to love myself I understood how much it can offend somebody
As I try to force my desires on this person, even though I knew the time
was not right and the person was not ready for it, and even though this
person was me. Today I call it “RESPECT”.

As I began to love myself I stopped craving for a different life,
and I could see that everything that surrounded me was inviting me to grow. Today I call it “MATURITY”.

As I began to love myself I understood that at any circumstance,
I am in the right place at the right time, and everything happens
at the exactly right moment. So I could be calm.
Today I call it “SELF-CONFIDENCE”.

As I began to love myself I quit steeling my own time,
and I stopped designing huge projects for the future.
Today, I only do what brings me joy and happiness, things I love to do
and that make my heart cheer, and I do them in my own way and in
my own rhythm. Today I call it “SIMPLICITY”.

As I began to love myself I freed myself of anything that is no good for
my health – food, people, things, situations, and everything that drew
me down and away from myself. At first I called this attitude
a healthy egoism. Today I know it is “LOVE OF ONESELF”.

As I began to love myself I quit trying to always be right, and ever since
I was wrong less of the time. Today I discovered that is “MODESTY”.

As I began to love myself I refused to go on living in the past and worry
about the future. Now, I only live for the moment, where EVERYTHING
is happening. Today I live each day, day by day, and I call it “FULFILLMENT”.

As I began to love myself I recognized that my mind can disturb me
and it can make me sick. But As I connected it to my heart, my
mind became a valuable ally. Today I call this
connection “WISDOM OF THE HEART”.

We no longer need to fear arguments, confrontations or any kind of problems with ourselves or others. Even stars collide, and out of their crashing new worlds are born. Today I know THAT IS “LIFE”!


Each day gives me a reason to celebrate life to know myself and to love myself.

One love. Peace!

22.07.2016 Mering


Trial of fire…


I thought about us, while craving for our silly plays and your magic touches. I closed my eyes,  needing rest, yet I thougt of you even more, my desires won out.

I was shaking, blood rushing to my head, from my desires for you, needing your touch, your teasing. I could feel your breath, taste your lips. Deep in my thoughts I was lost for a minute.

Lawdy.. I was only dreaming while awake, recalling images of us, of our fingers exploring our secret  hidden places only you and i know they exist. Lusting for your passionate kisses, pressing gentle against me.

This passionate night fled, leaving a trail of fire. without a visible trace, and still I thought about us.


08,02, 2016












Bildergebnis für pictures of invisible
………..You dance with me
but you’re not aware of me
You even pass me by, not realizing im standing there
……………..You are so into others as if i was not near
…..Will you ever remember my face?
maybe you may remember the  days!
it never occoured to me,
you ever realized i am seeking thee                                                                              have i ever existed in your world?                                                                               or have i ever been heard ?
I always felt your heart,  your pulse ,                                                                         as you pass by close
I’m invisible
i’m unseenable
i’m  not spoken to
i am not listend too
i am not even given a chance
i’m invisible im not given a glance
i´m not existing…
i’ll always be on the outside listenning
I was  so sick Of being just invisible me…
Hope someday you’ll understand me
may be make things better,
not for me but for you Mister
Wishing i was visible…
instead of  invisible..
I am not invisible… I am HERE!!
Photo credits by Mckay A. Browne 1st pic (title.)   2nd Pic by
Scott Mitchell – Photographer/Poet
Bildergebnis für pictures of invisible
by Maureen Ndemela Lermer
Dedicated to all those who feel invisible… You are visible.. because you exists.. Because you are WORTH…


A Tribute to Tobias Werner -Tobi- ➕


When sickness steals the life of a loved one, there are no words…
What flushes in my mind are memories of us more of YOU!!!
The games we played, songs we sang.
The way you walked, talked, smiled and laughed.
Some funny, some kind some wise,
I see now with different eyes.
Every moment spent with you seems like yesterday. It is really hard to say….💔
I knew this day will come, I just did not see it coming this soon.
You never said I am leaving, we spoke of we will meet again to talk share our future plans…
You are gone before I knew it… Oh, my heart is so heavy..💔!
If love alone could have saved you, you would never have died.
You are gone from us now,  but the one thing they can’t  take away are memories of you.
Your memory resides in my heart!!!💗
In my heart you hold a place no one could ever fill.
I love you!



Pain is often beyond words, but never beyond love. There are moments I just wish to stop talking and just feel love💞

Copyright by Maureen Lermer

*By the way we always sang to Miriam Makeba’s songs. He was a great Pianist He left too young. He was my Nephew.*

FEAR OF LOVE.. ( Philophobia )

After various heart pains, love sick… i tried so hard not to fall into that system of not thinking with my heart  but with the head. I was not going to allow anyone hurt me or play with my feelings anymore!

 It was an exceptional journey but finally i made it.. Well, with not so good results..

I  never knew I was slowly running away from love, the love i always wished and cherished. Now i suffer from  Philophobia or love phobia


For many people, love is like a boon granted to human beings. We all dream of falling in love and wish to be loved in return. Yet, some people think of love as something they must avoid. The prospect of falling in love makes these people feel nervous and anxious. This is what we called philophobia.

Philophobia (from Greek: filos, meaning “beloved” or “loving”, and phobos, meaning “fear”) is the state of someone being irrationally afraid of falling in love. People with philophobia tend to avoid the chances to get attached with someone and deny any special feelings they feel for a certain someone.

The possibility of falling in love and building a relationship may get philophobic people uneasy, nauseous, perspire, panic, and breathless. These problems will keep them away from relationship. If there is no further action to overcome this phobia, philophobic people may prefer to be single for the rest of their life.

Causes of Philophobia
A traumatic experience in the past is usually the major cause of philophobia. Failure in maintaining one relationship may cause people afraid to start another one, especially when they have maintained the relationship carefully with a very deep emotional feeling.

Some other philophobic people get their fear from hearing someone’s tragic love experience, be it their family members or friends. This kind of experience makes people retreat whenever love approach. They can’t stand the idea of having a deep emotional feeling with someone because they keep thinking of the worst situation that may happen if they fall in love.

Symptoms of Philophobia
People with philophobia will avoid as far as they can the chance to fall in love or have a relationship. They also feel uneasy and nervous as well as feel like running away when they think that they are exposed to love. In more extreme cases, people with philophobia may be sweaty, tremble, nauseous, numb, breathless, even feel like fainted at the prospect of falling in love.

Generally, philophobic people also avoid watching romantic movies or keep away from certain places where couples usually gather. Attending wedding ceremony will be a kind of torture to people with philophobia. If this continues, philophobia will be a drawback to people’s social life.

Treatment for Philophobia
Treatment to cure philophobia can be done through counseling, hypnotherapy, or psychotherapy with the help of some professionals. Treatment called cognitive-behavior therapy are known as the most popular and effective treatment to cure many kinds of phobias including philophobia.

Medication can also be taken, but it is not suggested since medicine does not really cure the phobia but only suppress it for a short time. It is probably better to dig the source of the problem causing someone’s philophobia, and cure it step by step than prescribe certain medicines and consume in routine.