A Jouney to myself.. 

To be made real be blended in…

Falling to new lows, entering into places

I did not want to go but endure…

I cannot act my age, but I can live my age

So happy of the knowledge gained through my journey

Reaching out to others to lend a hand and vise versa.. 

Learning to find a home in myself.. and being totally with my total being. A battle I will not choose to loose.. Why on earth should I? When such sweet notes, such amazing melodies, the steps! oh… and my dance has just begun.. 

For the first time I lay back observing the sky.. like in my early childhood.. lost in space  and time.. To become, acceptable to me.. I have walked among the living and death.. So much death among so much living.. 

But that won’t stop the river flowing.. so i take upon this journey as i learn the roles of the river… 

My journey has just begun. 

“If you want to be free get to know your real self. It has no form, no appearance, No root, no basic, no abode, But it’s function cannot be located. Therefore, when you look for it, when you seek it, You turn away from it all the more.  -Linji

Maureen Lermer 24/10/2017 

Renewing our vows

We have been together before..
I enjoyed those strong protective arms of yours
Kissed your precious lips
Shared your secret potion..
This time..
Meeting you again.. renewing our vows
Became even more better and more profound
Waking up next to you is more of a privilege, knowing each day spent with you is a blessing.
As days get closer for us to part.
I feel very sad; I get a sharp pain in my heart; my stomach acts weird …
But then, WE shared .. Stunning MOMENTS
I never knew the term Stunning, meant much more than it seems.
We had the simplest but we had the richest
We had our love.
Every moment spent… thoughts shared
every second of the day, is what I’ll carry to last me, till we both see again.
They are my memorable values
8/2017

9/2017 By Maureen Lermer 

Battles are real..

“I am on a battlefield of.. Deaths, sickness.. etc… in the past months”
I wish to use this opportunity to thank those supporting, loving and caring for me.

As the night takes over me
Darkness is my only friend.
Fear, embraces every inch of me,
Excitement, anxiousness becomes my master.. (even though i try staying strong)

Deep breath…
After Hours, months of sever battles. My body is totally rendered wretched. My soul and body is left with wounds to mend.

After all the happenings.. deaths,
Sickness and more
There is a reason to fight for my being here alive.
There is a future to build a solid self upon. Great things to withness.
There is hope in every morrow.
Sadness and sorrows are not mine to borrow.
My soul deserves the best now, more than ever, to move on and survive.

(May the soul of my father-in- law and those dear to me rest in perfect peace.)

“Dark days are necessary.
Just as important as the rest,
For if we didn’t have the worst.
We couldn’t recognise the best”

-Anonymous –

Maureen Lermer 8/2017

Get Well.. Be fit again

When you are so sick,
it gives me quite a fright,
So please, let your illness be ended

when you are ill,
our sun goes under a cloud.
Your presence in our lives
is such a bright joy.

Then, when you are not feeling well,
we feel the lack
of your glowing energy
and your contagious vitality.

You being so sick
makes us feel incomplete,
Just like a jigsaw puzzle
with a missing piece.

Hope you’ll soon be feeling fine
The way you were before
Because things just won’t be the same
Until you’re well once more.

Dedicated to the sick but most of all to my Sick son Franz.
Mami loves you so much.

Burning Desires. ..my thoughts 

Between the lines are our thoughts,
i reread them before i repose .
I dream of vigils that we lovers keep,
while all night long, I waking sign your name.
The tender sound does every nerve inflame.
Imagination shows me all your charms.
So adorable is your sparkling eye.

Love could you see my heart,
How fond, how true, how free from fraudful to explain
The eager wish, which through my very blood and soul I feel,
Which you cannot believe nor I reveal,
Which every metaphor must render less
And yet which I could well express
between sheets while we merge.
As our souls reach out as we endulge.

Maureen Lermer  24.04.17

Passionate wishful Desires for 2

As months turns into weeks, days, hours, minutes… seconds…. Finally!!

I have been waiting for this moment…
Here we are, staring at each other, eyes deep planted into our souls.
You want me just as much as I want you…. let’s stop fooling around.

Take me in your arms….kiss me all over… play love games on my body, bring out what’s been in me for far too long.
Damn! We know..  that’s all we keep dreaming and longing for.

Let’s work ourselves like we’ve never done before.. till we just can’t take no more and melt into each other’s magic.
I want you now.. and i know you want me too. Let’s wait no more…..

Here we are looking for a reason …. for us to anticipate
For a love like ours is never out of season. Please… stop teasing me!
Let’s pamper ourselves. We both know no other can love us, the way we do.
We are natures best gift to each other☯️💝

9.01.2017 @Maureen Lermer

My Burdens

I have a burden to carry, that burden is my MIND. I have  a burden to carry, that burden is my  Heart. I have a burden to carry, that burden is my SOUL.  I have a burden to  carry , that burden is my BODY. 

I have a will to make, a  will to help me carry my Burdens a step, a day, at a time.  I wish to be the person I was made to be, who is passionate  about things, the zeal to dare and the Determination to get through, despite my Burdens! !

Photographer and Artists : Aimay Menoba  (France-Angers )

Butterfly…

 Fly my butterfly fly..
I do not know how long you have around here.  I hear you do not have much time. So I plan not be in your way. I want you to go out in the world and spread your wings.  Fly!!!!  Land on every beautiful flower. .. flatter to the next. See how graceful, colorful  you look. See how the plants are happy to see you today. 

If you fly back to me, I ll know that,  I have been blessed one more time again. If not I hope you are well where ever you fly to. 

May every flower receive you with endless love. May they see in you the things I see in you, so that you can enjoy the little time you have here. 

Fly my butterfly fly.. spread your colorful wings and fly. 

One..love. Peace!