Saturday 27th 3am

3am..
Today I felt death so near… I was so sure that death was there to take me.
So I was going through a moment, about to go to the astral world..waiting for that special moment to take place..
Seems like I am set for my journey this time .as everything around me felt so different.
I felt like my blood was being drained out of me, gasping for air but with no big struggles. 
Why do I feel like,  it is my time to go…?
…laying there confused  waiting for my spirit to decide on leaving my body completely. Silence took over for a while as I lay there with my eyes half closed wondering what that was… I’m I dead?

….. So i wrote a note to my brother Mark to see if he will respond, that will confirm that, I’m still here on earth and alive. Yes he did!!!!

By the way, do you know, death is actually birth!

28th of July 2000 right after the birth of my son, I left on a short journey in the astral world, or the spiritual world. I thought my life on earth was nearly finished.. I found myself in a tunel, walking effortlessly towards a beautiful garden outside, 

….Then I was brought back on earth by doctors. I was not happy about it… I felt gloomy and apprehensive.

What puzzles me is why is the fear of death so universal, when beyond death lies only peace and greater evolution?

30.10.2017 Maureen Lermer

A Jouney to myself..

To be made real be blended in…

Falling to new lows, entering into places

I did not want to go but endure…

I cannot act my age, but I can live my age

So happy of the knowledge gained through my journey

Reaching out to others to lend a hand and vise versa.. 

Learning to find a home in myself.. and being totally with my total being. A battle I will not choose to loose.. Why on earth should I? When such sweet notes, such amazing melodies, the steps! oh… and my dance has just begun.. 

For the first time I lay back observing the sky.. like in my early childhood.. lost in space  and time.. To become, acceptable to me.. I have walked among the living and death.. So much death among so much living.. 

But that won’t stop the river flowing.. so i take upon this journey as i learn the roles of the river… 

My journey has just begun. 

“If you want to be free get to know your real self. It has no form, no appearance, No root, no basic, no abode, But it’s function cannot be located. Therefore, when you look for it, when you seek it, You turn away from it all the more.  -Linji

Maureen Lermer 24/10/2017 

Worth reading .. ” Zen”

By The Tao Te Ching

-2-

All under heaven see beauty as beauty only because they also see ugliness.

All announce that good is good only because they also denounce what is bad.

Therefore, something and nothing give birth to one another.

Difficult and easy complete one another.

Long and short fashion one another.

High and low arise from one another.

Notes and tones harmonise with one another.

Front and back follow one another.

Thus, the True Person acts without striving and teaches without words.

Deny nothing to the ten thousand things.

Nourish them without claiming authority,

Benefit them without demanding gratitude,

Do the work, then move on.

And, the fruits of your labour will last forever.

One love. Peace!

Titel picture by Scott Mitchell  of #Worldiction Arts 

As I began to love myself by Charlie Chaplin

With the ups and downs in life we are sometimes turn between who we are and what we are. Loving oneself is a challenge but when you do, it can bring about true healing and transformation. This poem truelly did inspired me. Charlie Chaplin, on his 70th birthday wrote this poem. Hopefully this poem helps you to begin to love yourself.

As I began to love myself I found that anguish and emotional suffering
are only warning signs that I was living against my own truth.
Today, I know, this is “AUTHENTICITY”.

As I began to love myself I understood how much it can offend somebody
As I try to force my desires on this person, even though I knew the time
was not right and the person was not ready for it, and even though this
person was me. Today I call it “RESPECT”.

As I began to love myself I stopped craving for a different life,
and I could see that everything that surrounded me was inviting me to grow. Today I call it “MATURITY”.

As I began to love myself I understood that at any circumstance,
I am in the right place at the right time, and everything happens
at the exactly right moment. So I could be calm.
Today I call it “SELF-CONFIDENCE”.

As I began to love myself I quit steeling my own time,
and I stopped designing huge projects for the future.
Today, I only do what brings me joy and happiness, things I love to do
and that make my heart cheer, and I do them in my own way and in
my own rhythm. Today I call it “SIMPLICITY”.

As I began to love myself I freed myself of anything that is no good for
my health – food, people, things, situations, and everything that drew
me down and away from myself. At first I called this attitude
a healthy egoism. Today I know it is “LOVE OF ONESELF”.

As I began to love myself I quit trying to always be right, and ever since
I was wrong less of the time. Today I discovered that is “MODESTY”.

As I began to love myself I refused to go on living in the past and worry
about the future. Now, I only live for the moment, where EVERYTHING
is happening. Today I live each day, day by day, and I call it “FULFILLMENT”.

As I began to love myself I recognized that my mind can disturb me
and it can make me sick. But As I connected it to my heart, my
mind became a valuable ally. Today I call this
connection “WISDOM OF THE HEART”.

We no longer need to fear arguments, confrontations or any kind of problems with ourselves or others. Even stars collide, and out of their crashing new worlds are born. Today I know THAT IS “LIFE”!

Each day gives me a reason to celebrate life to know myself and to love myself.

One love. Peace!

22.07.2016 Mering

Invisible…

………..You dance with me
but you’re not aware of me

You even pass me by, not realizing im standing there

……………..You are so into others as if i was not near
…..Will you ever remember my face?

maybe you may remember the  days!

it never occoured to me,

you ever realized i am seeking thee                                                                              have i ever existed in your world?                                                                               or have i ever been heard ?

I always felt your heart,  your pulse ,                                                                         as you pass by close

I’m invisible
i’m unseenable
i’m  not spoken to

i am not listend too
i am not even given a chance
i’m invisible im not given a glance
i´m not existing…
i’ll always be on the outside listenning

I was  so sick Of being just invisible me…

Hope someday you’ll understand me

may be make things better,

not for me but for you Mister

Wishing i was visible…

instead of  invisible..

I am not invisible… I am HERE!!

Scott Mitchell – Photographer/Poet

by Maureen Ndemela Lermer

Dedicated to all those who feel invisible… You are visible.. because you exists.. Because you are WORTH…

 

A Tribute to Tobias Werner -Tobi- ➕

When sickness steals the life of a loved one, there are no words…
What flushes in my mind are memories of us more of YOU!!!
The games we played, songs we sang.
The way you walked, talked, smiled and laughed.
Some funny, some kind some wise,
I see now with different eyes.
Every moment spent with you seems like yesterday. It is really hard to say….💔
I knew this day will come, I just did not see it coming this soon.
You never said I am leaving, we spoke of we will meet again to talk share our future plans…
You are gone before I knew it… Oh, my heart is so heavy..💔!
If love alone could have saved you, you would never have died.
You are gone from us now,  but the one thing they can’t  take away are memories of you.
Your memory resides in my heart!!!💗
In my heart you hold a place no one could ever fill.
I love you!
REST IN PERFECT PEACE TOBIAS

Pain is often beyond words, but never beyond love. There are moments I just wish to stop talking and just feel love💞

Copyright by Maureen Lermer
03/08/2015

*By the way we always sang to Miriam Makeba’s songs. He was a great Pianist He left too young. He was my Nephew.*

Quote

This was done by my amazing friend Scott Mitchell Photographer, Poet and Artist, in honor of me. As written below by him.  Thanks a whole lot my dearest friend. I wish people can appreciate one another!  One Love. Peace!

In honor of my dear friend Maureen in light of her passion to help other people in humanitarian efforts and more, all while never seeking recognition for doing so. “One love” I often hear her say and she means it.
The selfless hold the hope of the world -SM

QUOTES…

LIFE IS A LOVELY BATTLE…

 How do you see the morning today?

Scientist- Another day to experiment.

Prisoner- Another day to repent for my sin.

President- One more valuable time to lead.

Doctor- Countless moments to save a life.

Artist- Timed event for a masterpiece.

Lover- Another day to embrace and kiss.

Child- A whole new day to play.

Life is in different colors for everyone to see. But be the best person you can always be.

It is far more comforting to think God listened and said no, than to think that nobody’s out there- have a little faith.

Life is a challenge, and so is love. Things never come easy in life; if they do, memories are rare, suffering won’t get you through the tough times, there’s nothing to look back on. There’s no mistakes that you learn from. In the end, it’s all worth it.People were created to be loved. Things were created to be used. The reason why the world is in chaos, is because things are being loved, and people are being used.

Sometimes, you just have to distance yourself from people. If they care, they’ll notice. If they don’t, you know where you stand.

Love me without fear. Trust me without wondering. Love me without restrictions. Want me without demand.

Hear with your heart, see with your soul, be guided by a hand that you cannot hold, trust even if you cannot see. That’s how faith must be. Sometimes the things we can’t change, end up changing us instead.

BE THE CHANGE YOU WISH TO SEE IN THE WORLD

WHICH STEP HAVE YOU REACHED TODAY..???